A draft that started in November.

So sometimes I take notes after a sexual encounter so that I'll be able to write about it accurately later.  So nerdy.  Anyhoo, as you know I have just come back to my blog after a two-month hiatus, and I realized I had a few drafts with notes that I had never actually written a full blog entry for.

I love how the point form notes sound.  They made me laugh, actually.  So, here's to an (en)forced feminization that happened a couple of months ago, and the nerdy notes that I took.


started at 1am
too much booze
used sponge instead of brush - good girl didn't flinch
nylons with built-in panties
ripped open with corkscrew
shackles
dog chain & lead
sat on her face
rode it
stroking licking sucking through nylons
boots
3 hours
feeding her drinks
making out, face stroking
buried face in crinoline
sucked cock
squirted all over her
cum slut
whore for cum
asked her to go in the hallway, but she panicked and said no
spanked otk
jerked off in nylons
lived out dream of seeing cumming through nylons
i sucked out the cum
petted stroked praised

Wasn't that great?!

<3  Deviant Doll

Bridget and her new little skirt

I've not made a habit of being sexually attracted to women, but over the last couple of months I find my mind wandering to the fairer sex sometimes.  The idea of sharing Nexus' cock with another woman is very, very hot!  Her on one side of his cock, me on the other.  Licking, sucking, making lustful eyes at each other.  Making out together with the head of his cock popping in and out of our mouths.  Yeah.  That's a good thought.  A very good thought.  I imagine the sounds of his moans would be absolutely intoxicating.  I want him to feel that much pleasure.

On Wednesday night, Nexus transformed all on his own, into Bridget.  He doesn't even need my help anymore in getting his make-up on, or choosing an outfit.  It's quite impressive, really.  Oddly, I find myself missing being more of a part of his feminization.  I need to figure out how to get myself involved in the process again.  We've reached a great spot, and now I want to amp it up again.

I fell asleep on the futon while Nexus bathed, shaved, plucked, primped, make-up'd, and got sexy as fuck.  When Bridget tapped me on the knee, I awoke to a sexy, gorgeous sight.  She smiled at me, and awkwardly turned around for me in her little ankle boots.  WOW.  She was a vision.  I bought Bridget a new skirt, and I am so glad I did.  The tiny, very fitted skirt is oh so appealing.  Bridget's legs and ass are to fucking die for!  She embodied the sexiness of a woman.  Hands down.

Before I allowed any physical contact, I made Bridget go admire herself in the full-length mirror.  As she stood looking at herself, I heard her say softly, "Wow.  Is that me?"  It was such a beautiful thing to hear.  "You know you look really hot, don't you?"  She nodded, and looked coy.  There's something really special about your woman knowing she looks hot.  There's a sense of confidence and sassiness that makes her even hotter.

After admiring her hotness, I couldn't keep my hands off of her sexy, delicious body.  Her smell intoxicates me.  I find myself slowly and deeply breathing in her scent around her neck, and gently kissing her.

I kiss and touch differently when I'm with a woman.  Most of the time I'm more gentle, and tender, though I've been known to choke and slap a couple of women when I know they like that kind of thing.  Bridget's a different story though.  I treasure her.  She's my perfect little vulnerable girl.  She wants so badly to be wanted, and to please.  Also to be used like the little slut that we all know she is.

I fantasize all sorts of filthy filthy things about Bridget, to be honest.  I imagine bringing her out to a fetish event, on collar and lead.  Letting men grope her, and turn her on.  Have her suck cock after cock, then watch her get fucked hard.

Anyway, this Wednesday night she looked just divine.  She sat so prettily on the futon, so I straddled her and we made out for so long.  I was grinding my wet pussy on her, and enjoying the rigidness between her thighs.  I love sliding my hand down on to her boobs and groping them as we make out.  It's an intense turn-on for me to go directly from her boobs to her rock hard cock, straining to get pleasured through her nylons.  I can't explain in words how much I love the feel of her through nylons.  The pre-cum soaking through...ugh...I always lick it clean.  My soaking wet cunt is the only description needed.

Of course this isn't all about me pleasuring Bridget, and taking pleasure from it.  No, she's always instructed to get on her knees and please me.  It's a beautiful sight to see her look up at me with her hugely long eyelashes, whilst she's licking my delicious pussy.

I am a constant flow of squirty cum when Bridget's around.  She turns me on in ways I've never been turned on before.  It's intoxicating, and fantastic.  Rather, she is.

She gulped my cum down as fast as she could manage.  I could hear her slightly choking on the steady and strong stream of squirt.  What a good girl.

I rode Bridget that night.  I think me losing a bit of Dominance in the feminisation process has me a little confused, so up I went.  I rode her until she was pleading with me to let her cum.  When I'd had my fill, I gave her the green light to cum, and WOW did she ever.  I could feel her pulsing inside me, filling me with her pleasure and showing me her gratefulness.

I got off of her and lay down on my back; she was breathing heavily and trying to recover.  I spread my legs, and pulled her hand towards me.  Apparently I wasn't as done as I thought.  She lapped up her own cum directly from my cunt, and got a bonus of more of my cum too.  What lucky girls we were.

<3 Deviant Doll

Firstly, please excuse the lack of postings for the last couple of months.  This blog, and our adventurous sex has not stopped.  I simply have been so busy.  I shall endeavor to do better, as it’s a good keepsake for me.

Over the last couple of months, I’ll admit, we’ve been losing a bit of the kink.  We are having mind-blowing sex, but some of the filthiness has disappeared.  This weekend Nexus and I talked a bit about that, and tried to figure out why this has changed.

I think one big factor is that we each had a bunch of stuff we wanted to try, and we did (almost) all of them.  The ones we haven’t done yet, such as the mfm, is because we haven’t found the right person to do it with.

I guess we reached the point where we were sated, and then just relaxed for a bit.  One thing is, we’ve been fantasizing so much about the mfm.  I don’t know why this seems to be so damn difficult.  I find myself getting frustrated with the process of trying to find someone suitable. To be honest, I end up feeling like a filthy perv, and not in the good way.  Lurking around trying to find someone to tempt into a sexual playdate with myself and Nexus.  Eek!

I digress.

Also over the last couple of months have been at least one (en)forced feminization, litres of cum shot and squirted, dirty talk (this is getting a bit easier for me), realizations that maybe I want to try being with a woman again, and some seriously quality sex. 

I’ll admit something, and hope that someone has the cojones to comment, and help me out.  See, I think like a filthy-minded pervert, and a really open-minded one at that.  Problem is, sometimes I completely panic, and won’t even entertain an idea *that I came up with* because I fear the repercussions.  For instance, I’ve been getting really frisky imagining myself and another woman, going down on Nexus.  The thought of his cock in between our mouths, and us making out around the head of his cock makes me want to cum.  Then when I really start to think about it, I panic.  I think thoughts such as: “what if she makes him cum?” or “how would I feel watching him fuck/kiss/go down on (etc) her?”  I want so badly to try these things before I get to the point in my life where those opportunities are too few and far between.  So what the fuck do I do?  Dammit.  Why do I care so fucking much if someone else makes Nexus cum? 

Anyway, I’m hoping someone will have some good advice for me.

There are also other situations like orgies that I find tempting, but again, the fears are all too prevalent.

Once again, I’ve spoken up with Nexus and our discussion about bringing the kink back in went very well.  We’re both in agreement that we miss it, and there’s no reason not to do it.

We shared an amazing time together this weekend, and spent it indoors the entire time. ..drenched in sweat, and cumming.  I’ve been really craving the resurgence of Bridget, and hope to get to see her again on Wednesday.  For those of you who aren’t familiar with Bridget, she is Nexus’ female persona.

The things I seem to be interested in lately are these:  mfm, fmf, orgies, sex with other people in the room, couple swapping (though for whatever reason that one made my chest tight as I typed it), en(forced) feminization of my Nexus, having a threesome with Nexus dressed as Bridget, and another femmed man, peeing on Nexus, more bondage for me, little/Daddy play, etc.  I guess there are a lot of things.  

One thing that stays strong is my love, and lust for Nexus.  He’s my loce.

<3 Deviant Doll

** Update:  We had a great time with femming on Wednesday.  Blog entry to cum soon. 

Tell me what you're fantasizing about....

Last night I wasn't sure if I should be honest about what was going through my head when he asked me.  I mean, I'd never thought of something like that before, but I went forth.

"Er, to be honest, I was imagining you cumming on my ankle boot, and then me making you lick it off."

**blushes**

"Okay.  I'm going to cum on your boots, and lick it off."

Yep.  It really was that easy.

Nexus wanked hard and positioned my leg so he could cum down the side of the black leather.  The stiletto was digging into his skin under his cock.  I was masturbating myself furiously.  It was surprisingly hot!

He shook with the anticipation of his cum spewing out all over my boot, as did I.  It spurted out all thick and white, over and over again.  Then he lifted up my leg and with a few long sweeps of his tongue, he cleaned my boot of his cum.

HOT.

<3 Deviant Doll

Images

Recently Nexus and I were taking pictures with my new camera.  I thought I'd share a few of the images we captured.  Enjoy!

<3 Deviant Doll

How fast can you cum?!

The people Nexus had over on Saturday night popped over to the corner store to get mix for our drinks.  I was dressed in a corset, otk leather boots, and a fluffy crinoline skirt.  Nexus came rubbing up against me bemoaning the fact that we had no time for making the fucksies.  I laughed, and said:  "How fast can you cum"?

We bolted to the bedroom, just in case they walked in.  Like the good girl that I am I bent over, hands on the bed and readied myself for him.  He pulled down my fishnets, unzipped his trousers and fucked me!  He was so hard!

I guess through all the excitement of us rushing for a quickie made it very exciting for me too, and I came in a record breaking short length of time.  Nexus followed suit as soon as he knew I came.

We were beat red, beaming, and panting when our friends returned.

Little did they know, I had Nexus' cum running out of my cunt as we sat and drank our whiskey.

<3 Deviant Doll

A contortionist abides by the rules.

I'm a total filthy pervert.  Really, I am.  Lately Nexus and I struggle to find something new and kinky to do.  Most of the time, I'm not big on repeats, though there are some really special things, like the (en)forced feminization that I will always revisit and make better each time.

Last night we played around like crazy chasing that kink dragon.  I bought a pair of super hot over-the-knee leather boots that lace up the whole length of the boot.  They are extremely classy, and very Domme.  I suppose I used them for inspiration.

It was almost like we were fumbling around, nothing was quite getting us as charged as we'd have liked.  The average bloke and lass would've been right chuffed with what we were doing, but once you've opened that door to filthy, slutty, kinky, yummy things, it's hard not to crave that all the time.

Then I had a moment of brilliance!  It was definitely a lightbulb above the head moment.  Nexus was going to cum on his own face.  Yes, this was perfect.

I was wearing a 1950's hostess apron, a lovely black sheer number, and my otk boots.  The boots were Nexus' request, but they didn't suit the outfit, and if I were to be in control, I would wear what I wanted.  The apron stayed, and I donned my black patent leather stilettos.  Those shoes are sex.  No doubt.

I sat on the bed with my back against the wall, spread my legs open into a v-shape and told Nexus to lie down on his back in front of me.  His head pressed hard against my naked cunt.  I tried to not look too excited but I couldn't help but push my aching vagina against him.  His head held tightly in my hands I started to grind myself on him.

I explained to him what we were going to do, and he looked thrilled!

He put his legs up and basically rested his knees on my shoulders.  His cock was throbbing and perfectly positioned over his mouth.  To be kind I gave him a few licks on his cock and then started in on the most spectacular hand job a guy could ever hope for.  I had slightly lubed my hand and it slid with beautiful precision over his shaft. 

He was shaking and sweating, not only from the fucking awkward position, but from the anticipation.  I've seen that vulnerable look in his eyes before, and it makes me wet.  I love taking control of him like that.  Us both knowing his pleasure is (literally) in my hands is such a fucking turn-on.

My hand worked his cock.  The sounds of his moaning combined with the sound of my lubed hand stroking him was like a fuck symphony.  Pure music to my ears.

We took a break for a second so that he could get comfortable again.  He went straight back up over my shoulders.

I knew after that quick break, he would soon cum.  He was going to cum hard!

A bit more lube on my hand and I stroked him hard.  My hand fucked him something fierce.  He started to tremble and moan deeper and louder.  Sweat beads formed on his head, and I felt myself getting so wet.  I pushed myself into him.  His cock was hugely hard and when he opened his mouth from the pleasure of cumming, gasping for air, he got a pleasant surprise...his own cum shooting into his mouth and all over his gorgeous face!

He came so much.  He was orgasming and getting hot, delicious cum all over him, and he had no control over it.  With each stroke from my hand more cum dripped off it for him.  When he was done covering himself with his own pleasure, I just leaned back against the wall and surveyed my work.  He was shiny from sweat and cum.  My job was done.

Eat your heart out, June Cleaver.

I didn't feel like doing the dishes before bed tonight, but since moving into the new place, I made myself a promise to never leave any dirty dishes carried forward to the next day.  This is the first place I've lived in for over a decade that doesn't have a dishwasher, thus the strict rule for myself.  To be honest, I'm anxious that I'll end up with a rounded sink-load of dishes to tackle, just like when I was first living away from my parents' house.

The water was lovely and warm, and the smell of the fruity bubbles filled my nostrils.  I have a nice sized window above the kitchen sink and the breeze coming through it was cool.  I was happy that I kept my promise to myself.

Nexus came up behind me, wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed my neck.  I emitted what can only be described as the human version of a purr.  There's something so romantic and hot about your lover coming up behind you and giving you loves.  Carefully I washed a glass, trying to stay focused on the task at hand.  His kisses and nibbles on my neck were becoming more persistent, and his hand slid up the back of my dress and into my panties.

I rinsed the glass and burned my hand slightly on the hot water.  I was distracted.

Nexus' fingers pulled the crotch of my panties to the side and he slid one inside me. He took my wetness and massaged my clit.  I turned off the tap and grabbed the dish towel from the oven door without moving my body away from his.

I looked out the window into the pitch black sky, then closed my eyes and allowed myself to feel him.  His love, his hard cock pushing at my ass, his mouth on my neck, the way his fingers so eagerly touched me.  Then I heard his pants unzip.  As I clutched my dishtowel in my left hand I leaned over the sinks slightly, readying myself for the onslaught of his cock.

I got goosebumps as he lifted the back of my dress and pushed his cock into me.  My soft cotton panties rubbing against his shaft.  I could feel my heart pounding.  Both of us were breathing lightly but in stints and rather gaspy.

What a lucky girl I am, being rewarded with such a treat.

He pounded into me and I pushed back on his cock.  I wanted as much of him as my body would allow me to have.  I'm not even really sure how it happened now that I think about it, but suddenly I was facing him, and he had me pushed against the counter.  Our lips and tongues met with such excitement.  I just love making out with him.  I swear I could make out with Nexus all day and night and never tire of it.

I was standing on my tiptoes when he lifted my left leg up and around his waist.  His cock was able to get so deep inside me, especially now that I was so wet.  The counter was killing my back with each thrust from his cock.  I coveted the pain though.  I knew it was passion-filled pain.

Soon we ran upstairs, quite literally, stripped off really fast, and resumed our fucking like crazy.  He held me so tightly and lovingly.  I love the missionary position because you get to stare into your lover's eyes, and receive their kisses so easily.

"Slow down for a second", I requested.

I wanted to feel each and every millimeter of his cock go in and out of me.  He was so deep, and pushed into me so hard.  Fuck me, it felt so amazing.  I came so hard.  Turning my face I buried it into his neck and deeply inhaled his scent.

"Please", I whispered.
"You want my cum, my pretty little girl?"
"Yes, please.  I really want it.  Please."

His rhythm increased.  His thrusts became harder.  The sounds of his excited breath filled my ears.

He filled me with his cum, and unbeknownst to him, a tear rolled down my cheek.  I was so exhausted from cumming so much and so hard, and was overwhelmed with love for him.

We lay on my pretty polka-dotted sheets, on the amazing cloud bed, staring at each other, making out, and basking in the glory.

Eat your heart out, June Cleaver.

<3 Deviant Doll

The night I became Ms Pac-Man

So there we were feverishly making out.  We hadn't seen each other in a couple of days and I was so eager for Nexus' touch.  I don't masturbate very often, so when he and I are apart, I really feel the absence of sex.

He was going down on me and making me a very happy girl!  I wanted his fingers inside me, and when I finally got the courage (?) to tell him, I pretty much pleaded.  I was so desperate.

He started with two fingers and I came almost immediately.  I was wet, and slippery and so grateful.  My muffled moans and the rocking of my pelvis were clear signs that I was very happy.  I asked him how many fingers he had inside me, and he asked me if I wanted more.  "Yes, please", I purred.

His next finger made its way into my wetness and I liked the feeling of the extra pressure.  Slowly pressing into me, all three fingers made their way home.  I pushed so hard against his hand, getting all of his fingers that I could.  This was one of those times where I started to go into a different realm or something.  I genuinely go into a pleasure trance and stop thinking about anything other than how my genitals are feeling.

I knew he'd put another finger in me because the pressure was very tight now.  I very slowly moved forward and tried hard to relax.  I knew if I relaxed I'd be rewarded with more of him inside me.  More pleasure.  I loved the feeling of how wet I was.  There was a bit of a breeze from the air conditioner and it was cold on my wetness.

Sounds and feelings were all I could handle.

Suddenly my vagina seemed to slowly eat his hand.  This is when I became Ms. Pac-Man.  Nom nom nom went my vagina.  Oh!  Where did his hand go?  Unbelievably, together, and impulsively, he had fisted me.  What the deuce?  It felt SO GOOD.

I couldn't believe the feelings inside.  With each finger movement, he sent pleasure sensations to different areas of my lovely lady bits.  I came and came and came.  Seriously. I was dripping my juices everywhere.  After who knows how long, he slowly removed his hand (the thumb hurt!).  When his hand came out, a flood of cum came with it, soaking his bed.

He fucked me hard after that.  I had no ability to control it, and I squirted everywhere.  Like, to a ridiculous degree.

At the end of it all, I lay there feeling strange.  I felt like I'd reached a sexual apex, as well as feeling like I'd had an out of body experience.  I was unable to really talk for a while, or focus my eyes.  Certainly my legs were not functional.

I love nights like that.  Impromptu kink is good.  Really good.

<3  Deviant Doll

What do you do with 15 hours?

His cock pumped in and out of my mouth as I sat and peed on the toilet.  A bit of my pee hit my thigh as he shoved his cock far into my throat that I couldn't breathe for a second.  I gasped as he pulled out, so grateful for a breath, and he plunged himself back into my throat.  Tears pooled in my eyes.

Down on his knees, his hard cock tried to piss on my clit.  We kissed passionately, both focused on each others mouths, but distracted by the anticipation of his hot stream of piss gracing my cunt.  I moaned into his mouth as the first spurt hit me.  It was so hot.  Long steady streams, followed by slight breaks in flow gloriously teased my clit.  I was digging my nails into his shoulders from the pleasure.  When he was finished we continued to make out for a minute or two.  Lovers so pleased with themselves and this kink we so embrace.

As I washed myself, I called Nexus into the bathroom and showed him my cum-webbed fingers.  It was hilarious.  I had been cumming furiously while he was pissing on me.

When he pinned me to the wall in the hallway my heart skipped a few beats.  I knew that soon he would be pushing me down and having his way with me.  Boy was I right!  To say he was ravenous for my pussy would be an understatement!  It was like he was making out with it.  He was rubbing his face all over my pussy, covering himself in my scent and juices.  He tongue fucked me, and it just set me over the edge.  I squirted right into his mouth and he gulped it; no wasting any of it.  I had promised Nexus the night before that I was going to stuff his face between my thighs until I choked him with my squirt, and I don't like to break my promises.  He even sucked my pussy squirt from my nylons.

For the first time, he taunted me with his fingers around my asshole.  I'm so desperate lately to try an mfm that even the slight grazing of his finger over my asshole got me VERY excited.  I get so fucking excited when he talks kinky things to me, and he didn't disappoint me.  "Imagine a cock in your mouth as I'm fucking you", he encouraged.  Once I got on the mfm thought pattern, I was dying. I'm just aching to do this with my Nexus.  The more he helped me fantasize, the friskier and friskier I got.

I groaned loud and hard as his teeth sunk into my neck.  He bit me HARD and it was fucking glorious.  There's one spot in particular that just sets me off, and somehow he gets it every time.  Then he just nailed me with his cock and fucked me harder than he's ever fucked me before.  I was a bit taken aback if I'm honest, but was thrilled too.

As soon as he knew that I'd cum, he pulled out and shoved my head down onto his cock.  I licked and sucked it for all I was worth.  Moaning and groaning.  My hand stroking up and down his shaft in unison with my mouth and tongue.  He came long and hard in my mouth, and I immediately slid up his body and kissed his mouth, sharing his cum between us.  Snowballs in July!

Even though both of us were very very happy with what had just happened over the last hour and a half, we started talking filthy to one another again.  He stayed hard so we fucked again immediately.  I rode him hard and was so fucking loud with my pleasure.  My hips grinding back and forth, I tipped my head back, pulling my own hair, and came all over him.  He came with me, and I collapsed on him.  It was AMAZING!

We enjoyed a few drinks and some fun, but I was starting to drift off a bit.  Boy, wanna wake me up and keep me awake?  Start making out with me and touching me very passionately.  I was totally awake and so happy!  We 69'ed and just pleased each other stupid.  He was on top which meant his cock took a trip down my throat on a few occasions.  I love when his balls rest on my nose and forehead.  His gentle scent envelopes my nostrils, and his taste fills my mouth.  It's bliss.

Tiddly, sweaty, full of cum, and happy as can be, we both collapsed after yet another amazing love and fuck session.  We both slept like the dead.

What could be more pleasant than waking up and seeing your lover sporting a giant erection?  Yeah, not much.  I immediately started stroking him, even before either of us were really awake.  Bleary-eyed we started making out and enjoying that dreamy delicious morning sex.  So much oral sex.  Slurping away at one another, I remember thinking how lucky I am to have such a generous lover in Nexus.  He always makes sure that I cum, and usually before him...and then after him too.

He came inside me and spread it all around inside by giving me length after length of his cock.

Later I batted my eyelashes at him, and enticed him into one more time.  His cum from earlier was still inside me, and as he slid his cock into me, I reveled in the knowledge that I was his little cum slut.  He was going to fill me up with his hot cum again. The thought of this made me feel filthy and very excited!  I was so ridiculously turned on that I started thrusting as hard as I could.  I was so close to screaming!  I really thought I was going to explode.  I was so turned on it was unreal.  He sunk his teeth into the same spot that he bit the night before and I realized how tender my neck was.

His thumb gently stroked my lips and my mouth opened for it.  I wanted to suck it.  I wanted to pretend it was someone's cock.  Instead of holding this thought inside, I told him how much I wanted a cock in my mouth as he fucked me.  He got so turned on!  He fucked me deeper and harder.  He came hard, along side me.  I love when I can feel his cock head swelling so big.  I'm getting so in tune with his body that I can feel when he's going to cum for me.  It gets me so riled that I end up cumming simultaneously.

It was a beautiful and cum-filled 15 hours.

<3 Deviant Doll

Cum slut

So sometimes I take notes after a sexual encounter so that I'll be able to write about it accurately later.  So nerdy.  Anyhoo, as you know I have just come back to my blog after a two-month hiatus, and I realized I had a few drafts with notes that I had never actually written a full blog entry for.

I love how the point form notes sound.  They made me laugh, actually.  So, here's to an (en)forced feminization that happened a couple of months ago, and the nerdy notes that I took.


started at 1am
too much booze
used sponge instead of brush - good girl didn't flinch
nylons with built-in panties
ripped open with corkscrew
shackles
dog chain & lead
sat on her face
rode it
stroking licking sucking through nylons
boots
3 hours
feeding her drinks
making out, face stroking
buried face in crinoline
sucked cock
squirted all over her
cum slut
whore for cum
asked her to go in the hallway, but she panicked and said no
spanked otk
jerked off in nylons
lived out dream of seeing cumming through nylons
i sucked out the cum
petted stroked praised

Wasn't that great?!

<3  Deviant Doll

Cock, nylons, and a lap dance.

The other day it was Nexus' turn to tell me what to wear.  Strict instructions:  aviator dress, nylons, ankle boots. Ugh.  I always get stared at when I wear the aviator and I wasn't really in the mood to be looked at.  I get like that a lot.

When I walked into Nexus' work, a table full of dorky engineering students all stopped talking until I finished walking by.  Wtf does that mean?  I was trying to sidle in all sexy-like after that, trying to pretend I didn't care.  All I wanted was for my Nexus to be happy and quite frankly, hard.  There's something incredibly sexy about making him hard in public.  He doesn't wear underwear, so when he gets hard, it's really obvious.

Success.

Back at his place I sat down, crossed my legs and just waited for him to come to me.  The draw of my legs crossed, while wearing a very short dress brought him over like an animal on the hunt for their next meal.  He knows I have a new fascination with cocks combined with nylons, in many different fashions.  He squatted down to my legs and slid his cock back and forth along my nylon covered legs.  Quite frankly, I froze, and couldn't speak a word.  I was so turned on!

I leaned forward, but kept my legs crossed.  This move, or lack thereof, was apparently a massive turn-on!  Good girl :D

He never used his hands to move his cock around, he just allowed his hips to direct the movements, and it was HOT!  His eyes closed part way as he stroked himself on me.  I sat frozen, enjoying the view and realizing how wet he had made me.  I particularly enjoyed it when he poked his cock in between my knees, right where they were making an 'x' shape.  We were both letting out little moans.

Nexus has become quite accustomed to presenting his cock, and in turn, it's become very natural for me to immediately take him into my mouth immediately.  So when I was broken of the nylons and cock spell, he stood upright and I showed my absolute gratefulness to his cock by giving him a superior blow job.

Nylons trapping Nexus in position :D

Then he fucked me stupid.  The bullet style zipper pulls jingling as he pumped his cock into me over and over and over again.  I squirted all over the bottom of my dress :)  We came together again; this is a trend right now.  A trend that can always stay in fashion, imho.

<3  Deviant Doll

In other news...

... I'm dying to do something very kinky, verging on filthy, with Nexus this weekend.  I'm fucking frisky as hell, and have been under mass amounts of stress.  I need to decompress.

I hope he takes a strong hand with me this weekend.  I think, but am unsure, that I need thrown around a bit, spanked, and generally put in my place, then praised.  That sounds divine right about now.  I will leave it in his capable and strong hands however.  He knows I'm seeking kink, and I'm sure he will deliver.  I am one excited little doll!

The other piece of news I have is that I got my nipples pierced again.  I've had them done, vertically, horizontally, and diagonally, but only the diagonals were still in place.  Now I've got the existing diagonal barbells, and the new horizontal rings.  They look all pretty and dressed up.

Mmm, kinky weekend ahead... fingers crossed.

<3 Deviant Doll

I want some kink *stomps foot*

I seriously think I was pouting because I wanted some kink so badly.

Next thing I knew leather cuffs were being tightened around my wrists, and a chain was used to link them together.  I was bound to the arm of the futon, wearing a cute white ruched merrywidow with black polka dots and hot pink bows (the image to the right is the same style, just a different colour).  It was adorable.  Also with my patent leather fuck shoes.  According to Nexus I looked good enough to eat, and eat he did.

He spread my legs open as I was standing and bent over the futon, where I was attached.  It was so sexy because he went underneath me and just went to town licking me.  It wasn't long before I squirted all over his face.  At first I was awfully embarrassed, but after a bit, I was so fucking turned on, I didn't care anymore.  I know he likes it, so... squirt away, I say.

My shoes kept sliding on the tile floor, thus my legs were spreading wider and wider.  Still Nexus was pleasuring me.  I loved when I looked through my legs and saw him stroking his own cock too.  There's something incredibly hot about him stroking his cock when he's pleasuring me.

He got up, undid me (thankfully, because I was started to be in a bit of pain, yet loving it anyway) and then I pounced him!  I think that was a bit of a pleasant surprise for Nexus.  I'm not a top kind of gal, but lately I like to pounce him suddenly and ride the fuck out of his cock.  I love looking at his glassy eyes as I ride him to the finish.  So I did.

One day soon I'm going to try the reverse cowgirl position.  I don't recall that I've ever tried it, and I keep threatening to.

Ya know, there's something very pleasing about being on top of Nexus and watching his face as he comes.  Sometimes I want to wrap my hand around his throat when he's launching his cum into me.

<3 Deviant Doll

This is what you're gonna do...

"I want you to choose the porn of your liking, and it should be at least 10 minutes long.  I want you to change into your black and white striped skirt, platform boots, and you don't really need a top."

I was intrigued and a bit nervous because I had been bemoaning that I wanted my own version of having a dress up kind of 'event', like when I femme up Nexus.

It takes me a LONG time to find porn that I really enjoy, so I set about my tasks, like the eager pleaser that I am.  When I'd finally chosen my porn, I told Nexus.  He had a quick view of it, and decided it was a good choice.  Apparently he wouldn't be watching it anyway...

He touched my face and looked deeply into my eyes, then kissed me.  Mmm... I love the way he kisses.

Then he smiled a grin that I couldn't quite read.  Was that a devilish look?

I was instructed to sit on the futon, and widely spread my legs.  I did as I was told.  He pushed the table back and cleared an area in front of the futon.  Then I heard the jingle of buckles.  I knew what was coming.  He wrapped the leather cuffs around my wrists and pulled tightly, then joining them together behind my back.  "Watch your porn now", he instructed.

As I watched a priest fuck two nuns in rural France I found myself surprisingly turned on by this cliche role play.  It helped that the costumes and setting were extremely authentic looking; I love that.  Being the lucky girl that I am, Nexus buried his face between my thighs and licked my pussy like it was the last thing in the world he could have for sustenance.

I squirmed at the feeling of his tongue and fingers pleasuring me.  I was dying to touch him, but I couldn't.  That feeling of dying to touch him was extremely fun though, I must say.

To help me, he stood up and put his cock in my mouth and pumped it back and forth in my mouth. A lot of times I push or grope his ass when I'm giving him head, but I wasn't able to this time because my hands were still bound behind my back.  I sort of lunged by mouth forward on his cock, trying to get all of him inside and down my throat.  He started throat fucking me and I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes, but I was enjoying it so much.

When it finally got to be too much he undid the wrist cuffs, pushed me down and just nailed me!  He fucked me for all he was worth.  Legs up, legs down, legs up and to the side, missionary, etc.  It was bliss.

Thank you my sexy, Nexus.  That night was beyond fun, and you made it for me <3

I'm a lucky girl.

<3 Deviant Doll

Can we do anal, please?

I always thought that guys want to do anal, like, anytime they can.  Alas, since the last incident where I ended up barfing from the adrenaline rush from the (pain of) ill-executed anal, Nexus looked almost frightened when I asked.

Nonetheless, he complied.

For whatever reason, even after all these months that Nexus and I have been together, I am still able to get shy and awkward around him.  Some say it's endearing.  I say it's annoying.

We fooled around for a long time, making out with such love between us.  I was really ready for some more serious fun.  I guess because I was such a willing and wanting participant, I relaxed quite easily and Nexus was able to get his extremely lubed finger(s) inside my bum.  I wasn't overly enjoying his fingers up there, but I knew I would love his hard cock inside me.

He lubed himself and me, to a ridiculous degree and then whammo!  We were so lubed up that it just shot in there like a fucking rocket!  It was unreal.  It didn't hurt at all, but I jumped because I was so surprised.

I was lying on my stomach with his cock inside me.  We lay there together for a minute, neither of us moving.  Well, in fairness I could feel his cock twitching; super eager to start fucking me.  Nexus made sure to pull my hair and put all of his body weight on me at points; he knows I love this.  Boy, I was enjoying myself quite thoroughly and was pushing back onto him like crazy!  I couldn't get enough of him.

With his cock inside my ass, one hand grasping a large handful of my hair, and his other hand rubbing my clit, I was at his fucking mercy.  I was so wet that I was dripping onto the sheets.  It had been a while since I'd been that eager, and I was loving it.  I handed him a small red vibrator and he inserted it into my pussy.  The feeling of him in my ass, and the vibe in my pussy was AMAZING! With all those sensations going at once, I ended up sort of going into a fuck trance or something, I'm really not quite sure what happened.

All I remember was all the different pleasure sensations, and the sounds of me moaning non-stop.  I was just going nutso.  Every time he'd pull back on his stroke outward, my ass would pull him back in, just dying for more.  So much cum and moaning.

After about  1/2 hour of fucking he came so hard in my ass!  I basically milked the cum from his cock with my  ass.  Fuuuuuck he MOANED.  It was so ridiculously hot.  I love when I can feel his cum pumping into me.  The idea that I've made him and his cock so happy, makes me one happy, and good girl.

When we Nexus finally caught his breath, he nuzzled into my neck and told me I was a good girl.  I was thrilled, but just couldn't move.  I was like paralytic with orgasm.  Honestly?  I could cum for the whole night, it felt that fucking good!

He asked me if I'd had several orgasms, and then joked that maybe I just had one giant one that lasted half an hour.  I'm not exaggerating or kidding when I say this, but I do have to question if I just had one giant, mega orgasm!  It was phenomenal.

This may have to be in the cards this weekend.  I've got myself all riled up thinking about it.

<3 Deviant Doll

Look what I caught in my fishnets.

It took a lot of courage, but I showed Nexus the porn I've been watching.  It may seem curious to some why it would take courage to show their lover what gets them off, but for me I suffer from all sorts of shame issues.  Not only would this be revealing to him that I wanked, but also that I was wanking to she-male and transsexual porn.  If someone else told me they were wanking to it, I'd have zero problem; no judgement.  Rules I apply to myself are very different for some reason.

I grew up in a household where sex was taboo.  If I got caught, or was under suspicion of having engaged in sexual activity, I would get attacked, both physically and psychologically by my Dad.  What I didn't realize until quite recently was the impact this has had on my sexual maturity and understanding.

The good news is, Nexus is so open-minded and patient, also a fucking pervert :D  His encouragement for me to enjoy what makes me happy and turned on is so amazing, yet scary too.  I find myself questioning whether he means it, or if he'll suddenly think I'm repulsive for my kinks and desires.

Last night as I led Nexus to my saved porn links, I felt myself trembling inside.  He was so sweet and gentle, also a little excited to see what had brought his Deviant Doll to cum on her own.

We had been fooling around when I had suggested watching, so we were already frisky.  As we were watching he was on top of me, kissing and caressing me.  We were so close, and not just physically.  I could feel his love for me.  As he slowly fucked me, his eyes were locked on me, and I asked him to please watch the porn because I really wanted him to see.  I was so wet, ridiculously so.

It was evident that we both enjoyed what we were looking at.

I felt happy and empowered.  He hadn't mocked me at all.  In fact, he seemed almost proud of me for taking the chance that I did to enjoy myself, and then share it with him.

We fucked long and hard, and ever so intimately.  I squirted and gushed to the point where we were both drenched and spatters of my juices were going everywhere.  I was a happy kitten.

When my legs were up bookending his head, my fishnets were flapping away on my left foot.  They were distracting me, and then attracting me.  I started to fantasize about taking the legs of them and stretching them around his neck, thus binding my ankle to his throat.  Alas, we switched to me on top, and I thought I'd lost my moment.  I was so disappointed in myself for not going with my impulse.

It's like I couldn't help myself.  My hips grinding away, his cock hard inside me, and our eyes locked, I reached down and pulled the fishnets off of my left foot and brought them up in to my right hand.  Feeling very determined, and like Nexus pointed out afterwards, almost in a trance-like state, I kept fucking him, and wrapped my fishnets around his throat.  With my right hand I gathered my courage, strength and fishnets and pulled hard.  His facial expression changed.  I wasn't sure what that look was, but I continued.  Pull, then release, just like he does to me when he's got his hands around my throat.  I felt different.  Stronger maybe.

We came simultaneously, and hard!  It was beautiful.

I've felt strange ever since though.  Almost like a different person.  I keep surprising myself with my own thoughts and desires, and it's very strange to surprise yourself.  I hope I can keep up with following what makes me feel good, and also that Nexus likes it too.  I read something the other day that made so much sense to me:  "Love is giving someone the power to destroy you, but trusting them not to."

Onwards and upwards.

<3  Deviant Doll

Mother's Day

Earlier this month was Mother's Day here in Canada.  On Facebook one of my friends posted this status:  "Mother's Day; the only time of year when women actively accept a facial."  I laughed so hard!

Know what happens when a thought like that is planted in my head?

I heard myself saying to Nexus as we were fucking: "Will you please cum on my face?"

"Cum on your face?" he said surprised.
I mumbled in such a shy tone:  "Yes please."
"Okay!"

It was the first time I had ever asked him to turn off all the lights when we were fucking, but had not planned the facial experience, it was just something that happened.  Plant that seed, and watch it come to fruition with me.

In the dark with only the slight glow of the laptop, he straddled me and started jerking off in front of my face.  Not only was this spectacularly hot, but I realized I really do love watching him jerk off.  I love seeing how he touches himself, and how hard he gets.  The anticipation of waiting for his hot stream to hit my face was so erotic and painstaking.  I could hear his breathing change and I knew that soon my face would be made up with his cum.

I was readying myself for the onslaught when I felt his hot cum squirting all over my face.  I was licking it off my mouth, and felt so greedy for it.  I took his cock and smeared his cum all over my lips, tasting it all the while.

It was fucking hot!

When I went to clean myself up, I stood and stared at my face in the mirror, covered in cum.  I was so taken with it, and so was he.  I'd never wanted to do this before, and now I found myself wet from it.

We've done it again since, but with the lights on this time :D

Sexy business

I had a job interview the other day, so I got out the professional looking garb.  I have this awesome Mad Men inspired dress that I chose, and paired it with super cute black high heels with a little leather heart on them.  As I'm describing it, the outfit doesn't sound overly professional, but it totally is.  I rocked the look for sure, and the first thing the interviewer said to me was:  "Omg, I LOVE your dress".

Nexus and I agreed it would be very sexy for me to come meet him at his work in the professional outfit, and we could get all gropey and eventually rp.

He was so taken with the outfit.  His hand was permanently on my upper thigh, or desperately moving towards its target.  I couldn't find any stockings in my drawer that didn't look mangled, so I had to wear full nylons.  Possibly doesn't sound sexy, or even look sexy, but somehow Nexus made me feel sexy as fuck in them.

One thing I do love about full nylons is the look of his hand sliding down inside them.  There's something incredibly hot about that.

As we were making out, he hiked my dress up to my waist and started pulling down my nylons.  I realised I needed to pee, and asked for a quick minute to go.  Still in my shoes (actually the ones that are in the picture at the top of the blog), panties and nylons around my ankles, I hobbled over to the washroom.  Nexus was quite turned on by the sight of me hobbling back over to him, semi-bound by my own undergarments.

I sat down like a good girl and put his cock in my mouth.  Oh how we both moaned.  I just love his cock so much...in my mouth, banging against my tonsils, filling my vag, between my tits, up my ass, all of it!  Somehow lately I'm able to get his cock so far into my mouth and throat, and I don't even gag.  This is all kinds of awesome.

I told Nexus the other day that I love him going down on me, but I really need something to do when he's down there.  As in, I need to touch him, or suck his cock...something.  He took the pro-tip and put it into practice right away by way of climbing up on top of me and we went into a delicious 69.  Admittedly, my blow jobs aren't as spectacular in this position because I have nowhere to pull back my head.  It meant I had to get a bit creative, and it made it kind of fun!  I ended up with a wonderful new technique of popping his cock head in and out of my mouth, and it seemed quite popular :)

As he was on top of me, I looked up and saw his gorgeous, perfect ass.  Fuck I love his ass.  Suddenly I was imagining a guy on top of Nexus, fucking him up the ass.  I would've had the most perfect view of such an activity.  I got so turned on.  What the hell is happening to me?  I'm such a deviant as of late.  O.o

I'd been a bit pent up because of stress, and Nexus just went to town going down on me.  It felt like he was making out with my lady bits, and I fucking loved every second of it.  So I squirted.  Do you have any idea how fucking good it feels to squirt, especially when you been pent up?  If you don't know, I hope you'll have that feeling someday.

He got up, turned himself around, made out with my drippy cummy cunt, and then proceeded to fuck me so hard and with such fervour.  Bliss.  When he pulled my legs up to his shoulders, he ducked under my nylons, which were still binding my ankles.  That was fantastically yummy to see.  Fucking fucking harder harder, then he grabbed my panties and inhaled the scent so deeply.  Then I came again because who wouldn't at that point?!

He fucked me so hard until he filled me with his cum.  He knows how much I like him to paint the inside of me with his cum, so he moved his cock all around, back and forth and spread it everywhere.  Soooo good.

We collapsed together in a heaving, steamy, spent heap.

The next morning, the outfit went back on (long story) and we couldn't make it out the door without him talking about how hot I looked, and how much he wanted to ravish me.  I taunted him with the idea a bit because I really wanted the sex too!  Pop pop pop pop went his button-fly and out came his cock.  I must've looked thrilled because his face lit up too.

He led me to the front door, pushed me hard against it and kissed me.  A passionate, quickie against the door was exactly what I had hoped for.  My Nexus knows me so well.  It was so hot in his place that we were sweating like crazy.  My make-up was starting to run down my face from sex sweat.  He needed  me to take over being on top, so I did.  I straddled him, and rode him with as much passion he and I deserve, and that's a lot!

He came inside me and left me with that reminder of him all day.  Even after washing myself, his cum squeaked out of me and into my nylons, as I waited in a giant mall for some friends.  It made me nervous, but so excited too.  I wondered to myself, were there any other people in the mall with cum squishing out of them?  I hoped so.

<3  Deviant Doll

Return of my pretty little bitch.

Our first time playing lesbians was so amazing that I couldn't wait to do it again.  So, a couple of weeks after we tried it the first time, we were both gagging to do it.

Painfully hungover and tired, we went out to the market and sourced a pretty pink wig, cut into a bob.  Nexus deserved to have a nicer wig than that shit one I used the first time around.  I let him choose it, and it was a pussy moistener knowing that my boyfriend was choosing a wig for himself, so that I could dominate him dressed up as my pretty little bitch.  Fuck!

We ran into a friend, chatted for a bit, then went to the car, fucked in Nexus' work parking lot (remember that blog entry?).  I was so tired that night that I wasn't overly into the effort required for playing lesbians, but I really didn't want to let him down.  Starting at something like midnight or later, I got out my make-up and started dolling him up.  Transforming him was turning me on, and I was so glad we decided to go through with it in spite of both being exhausted and still hungover.

I did a better job of his make-up this time, and the new wig made a huge difference.  Also, I had a couple of choices for his clothing.  We both agreed on a PVC shirt, and the kilt.  Another new thing was that I didn't have him wear panties this time, though the first time around his cock in those soft lace panties just about killed me!  I had him put on sheer black nylons.  Nexus shaves his legs, and has really quite gorgeous gams from walking so much.  Needless to say, his legs looked fab in those nylons and short kilt.

Know what's just as hot as seeing Nexus' hard cock straining to be released from stretchy lace panties?  Seeing it rock hard through a pair of cheap nylons.  Oh fuck.  I took a picture this time, and I wish I could post it on here, but I can't.  What I can do with it, is use it as wank material.  Phew.

I literally have to snap myself out the trance that becomes my staring at Nexus in this dress-up game.  His eyes are so gorgeous, and he looks so pretty for me.

Have you ever felt a hard cock through nylon?  If not, you should do it.  Not only look at it, but squeeze it, lick it, nibble it, all through the nylon.  I bet you'll be as soaking wet as I was.  I couldn't keep my hand off his cock as we were making out.  My arm was sore from being all twisted backwards to grope him, but I didn't even care.  I loved when his pre-cum was soaking through the nylon and moistening it, mixing with my saliva.

I lifted his kilt, pulled down the nylons, and started giving him a fucking superior blow job.  I love taking his cock not only in my mouth, but down my throat.  There's something about feeling his cock bang the back of my throat that makes me wet with desire.

I did notice this time that Nexus was fighting the whole total submission to me, but that's okay.  He ended up topping me, and since I normally bottom to him anyway, it felt natural.  I wasn't going to give up that easily though.  I moved out from underneath him, and pulled him up to a sitting position and slid him inside me.

I was so ready to fuck the hell out of him.  It feels so good when I pivot my hips around on his cock.  I can feel it touching every last inch inside me.

We both came so fucking hard!  I was literally seeing black spots and thought I was going to pass out, as I collapsed onto his chest.  It was the first time that night that we'd really lost eye contact.  I love my pretty little bitch.

<3  Deviant Doll

Soundtrack:  Die Form

Stable Boy

Ever have one of those perfect, loving nights?  I did last night.  They don't happen all that often, but that makes them all the more special when they do.

Nexus was determined to de-stress me, and I was pretty keen on him trying.  I've been under immense pressure and stress lately, and I reached a point where I was just so fucked off that I couldn't seem to handle even the most mundane of tasks.  So my Nexus stepped in.

He bought a delicious bottle of chianti for us to share; he knows it's my favourite.  As he was making dinner, I lay down with a glass of wine that he'd poured for me, and kicked back with my new Schrodinger's Cat book that I picked up dirt cheap at VV boutique.  Even if the relaxation treatment had stopped there, I'd have been stoked.

We had a delicious vegetarian (possibly vegan) stir-fry, and then got into a lovely hot lavender bubble bath together.  Wine, candles, love, bath...it was so wonderful.  There haven't been many times in my life where a man has taken the time to be so loving.

Fresh and relaxed, we started making out really lovingly when Nexus told me to lie face down on the futon.  At first I thought he was going to spank me, and in my head I was hoping not; I wasn't in the mood.  Alas, he straddled my ass and massaged my back, neck and shoulders.  When the massage was done he stayed on top of me and tilted my chin up and back; his kisses pulled me into a wonderful place.  My ass lifted a bit and struggled to make contact with his hardening cock.  I kept pushing myself into him.

He rolled me over and took his place on top of me.  I was enjoying feeling the full weight of him.

"Hmm, I know", he said and got up.

When he returned he was armed with a blindfold for my eyes, and some sort of tying apparatus for my wrists.  I don't know what it was because he tied my wrists after I was blindfolded.  He nipped a bit of my hair in the knot and I winced, but loved it.

My wrists were tied  together, and attached to the arm of the futon.

He explored my body with his mouth and tongue, kissing me, biting my neck, sucking and licking my nipples, and going down on me for so long.  It was during him going down on me that I suddenly realised that I was fantasising.  If you haven't listened to Die Form's Bach Project, I would really recommend it, especially if you're fucking.  It sets such a romantic, yet slightly twisted mood.  

Some of my senses were heightened because my sight was gone, and my ability to touch (with my hands) was also gone.  The music just filled my ears, and transported me to a different mindset altogether.  I'd started to fantasise that I was a Princess, and Nexus was my stable boy.  I'm not kidding when I say that in my mind's eye, we were in Medieval times (and no, not the dinner theatre - lol!) and in a courtyard of a castle grounds.  I was wearing a wonderfully flowing red velvet and creamy cotton dress, and was lying on bales of hay with a blanket in between.  Nexus was up under my dress pleasuring his Princess.

He stroked, kissed, and adored me, and I lay back allowing him to have his way with me... I had  no choice, after all.

Oh how he seemed to love pleasuring me with his mouth and tongue.  Slurping up all my juices, like they were exquisite wine.  Kissing me, and biting down hard on the tender flesh between my thigh and crotch.  I squirmed and as my breathing increased in speed and sound, Nexus went silent.  Then suddenly there was creaking.  

My stable boy was cheekily tickling my lips with his eager cock.  I licked his sweet pre-cum off of the tip, moistened my lips, and opened my mouth. I swirled my tongue around his head, as he pushed himself further into my mouth.  My tongue outstretched and as he plunged into my mouth I massaged his cock with it.  I imagined us trying to hide away from any prying eyes, and how naughty we were being.  I reminded myself to relax...

This saucy little stable boy was getting rather frisky, and as his cock head traced the roof of my mouth, he moved my face to just the right angle, and then pushed himself much harder into my throat.  He started fucking my mouth.  I didn't gag.  In fact, I loved it.  I ended up being ridiculously wet.  

The blindfold stayed on even while we were fucking.  He fucked me with such passion, but it was killing me not being able to grope his ass.  Being that he is the stable boy, he has a horse rider's ass, all perfect, round, and firm...oh, so very firm.

I moaned as quietly as I could when he was fucking my g-spot, but I couldn't handle staying quiet enough.  There's this point where I just change into a wild woman.  Seriously.  As I was changing into this crazed creature, Nexus realised, pulled his cock out and slid it up and down the length of my pussy, focussing on my clit.  It's a sure fire winner.  I squirted everywhere!  It felt so good.  See, because of my mass amounts of stress, the last couple of times we fucked, I hadn't cum.  I was so frustrated.  So squirting felt even better than normal.  

Oh my sweet little stable boy was groaning and so thrilled that he'd made his Princess feel so wonderful.

I squirted a few more times, and then Nexus filled me with his cum.  He collapsed on me, and he removed my blindfold.  We started making out, sweaty, fulfilled, and so in love.

Next thing I knew he was coming into the room and asking if he'd actually fucked me to sleep!  He had!  I had cum so hard, and so much, that I had post-sex pass out.  So fantastic.

Someone remind me to get the stable boy a few more bullion...

<3  Deviant Doll

Soundtrack:  Die Form - Bach Project; Die Krupps (unsure what album)

  

Parking lot is videotaped

Nexus and I went strolling around on Saturday in Kensington, and it was such a beautiful day.  It was so crowded though!

The night before we met a new friend,I'll call him Blue (after the skirt) maybe one that I'll finally have the elusive MFM with?  He was a nice guy, and wore a blue PVC skirt...gotta be a good sign.  Oddly, we ended up starting what would've likely been an amazing MFM with a guy we know, I'll call him MP, but Nexus was too drunk.  While it lasted it was pretty hot though!

Nexus and I were making out, MP was fingering me, and Blue was kissing the inside of my thighs!  I know, right?  Wowzers.  It was hot whilst it lasted.

I totally just went on a tangent there.

Back to Saturday afternoon, and when we were done walking around, we went to my car which we'd parked in Nexus' work lot.  I was frisky, as was he, so I suggested we fuck right then and there.  It was scary, I'm not gonna deny it.  We were surrounded by houses and apartment buildings, the parking lot is videotaped, and there was a guy standing in the neighbouring parking lot.

I took off my gothy boots and tights, climbed over into the passenger seat and straddled Nexus.  He was already hard, and his cock just slid right in me.

Admittedly I said to him:  "This isn't one of those times where you need to hold back for half an hour!"  I was pretty nervous about getting caught - lol!

The car was hot, and as I rode him I felt myself getting hotter and hotter.  I bobbed up and down on his cock like a fucking superstar!  It wasn't long before he came inside me, and both of us collapsed into one another, and then just started laughing.  It had been very exciting!

When I moved back over to the driver's side, some of Nexus' cum squeezed out of me, and onto the fabric of the seat.  I blushed.  He thought it was hot that I had no control over where his cum was going, and the idea that soon at dinner we would be at the restaurant, and his cum would be gooing out of me and into my tights.

I wonder if we'll ever been seen on the surveillance video?

Love that Saturday afternoon fun!

Soundtrack:  KMFDM - Nihil

Zzzzzz...

After our friend Spooky left last night, Nexus and I ate a bit, then nom'd each other.

We'd been drinking, and quite frankly smoking a bit.  I was gonzo.  I really can't mix the drink with the other, it just k.o.'s me.

We were fooling around all sloppily, groping frantically, making out like we'd just discovered how awesome making out is.  I must admit, the night is very blurry, it is for Nexus too.

Certainly at some point, I was taking pictures up my skirt, at my panty-free, fishnetted crotch.  I found the pics on my Blackberry today - LOL!

I was sitting, and Nexus stood in front of me and presented his cock for pleasuring.  I guess because I was so laid back (re:  gin and juice, and crunk on cider), I was ready and willing for anything.  If you haven't picked up on this already, you'll know that I fucking adore Nexus' ass.  His ass is so firm, and perfect.  Mmmm hmmm.  I digress.  I remember my hands slipping around on to his ass as I was sucking his cock.  Before I knew it, I was pushing his ass forward, thusly pushing his cock farther into my mouth, and then throat.  Then he got excited, and realised I could handle it, and started throat fucking me, and pretty hard!

I know at some point soon after this, Nexus went down on me and pleasured me silly.  He ripped by fishnets open with his teeth, and licked, kissed, and sucked me through the hole. I am such a lucky girl. It actually gets to the point where I've had so many orgasms, back to back, that I have to ask him to stop.  I HATE having to ask him to stop.  It just doesn't seem right, ya know?

When we started fucking things get awfully blurry.  I remember squirting like crazy!  My cunt pushed his cock out at one point when I just had to squirt!  I love that.  Bodies are so fucking amazingly weird.  He was fucking me pretty hard, and at the same time I was all squirty, and it was going EVERYWHERE.  It was splashing all over the place, my Blackberry, the table, all over us, and there was even a moment where I got a shot in my mouth.  I told Nexus when it happened, and he informed me that there were lady juices running down my chin.

It's about this point where I don't remember anything else.

As it turns out, I was fading out, and Nexus asked me if I was okay, and if I was falling asleep.  I insisted I was okay, and that he should continue, so he did.  Well, he did until I started SNORING.  Man, oh man, how embarrassing!  Needless to say, he was in quite the predicament.  He was almost ready to cum when I started snoring.  So what's a guy to do?  Finish?  He decided that was too weird, so he pulled out, watched a porn, and jerked off with one hand on my fishnetted leg, and one on his cock.

In the morning, when he woke (I'd been up for ages) we started fooling around.  We were both awfully eager to have our hands on one another, especially considering the way the night before had ended.  c(ue massive blushing)

Oh boy did he give me orgasm, after orgasm, after tongue induced orgasm.  I couldn't take any more.  He got on top of me put his cock in me, and kissed me with such love as his body made its way back and forth over mine.  We were getting so warm.  He stroked my hair with both hands, and just as I was getting all dreamy, and thinking we were going to have slow romantic sex, he grasped a handful of my hair in each hand and gripped very tightly.  My head naturally tipped back to compensate for the grip, and as he fucked me harder, his grip got tighter.  I got to the point where my head was tipped as far back as it would go.  I almost wondered if he was punishing me for the night before.  He hadn't fucked me that hard, with that tight a grip on my hair in quite a while.  His hands made their way to my neck, and he squeezed and released.

He just fucking drilled me.  As he started to cum inside me, he held me tight to his body.  I could feel the sweat pooling between our bodies.  My cunt just totally gripped his cock and milked the cum out of him.  Lately, I feel like I never want to let go of his cock when he's cumming.

So there you have it, sex, love, embarrassment, and then more sex and love.

It's always a good time with Nexus!

<3  Deviant Doll

Soundtrack:  I'm sure there must've been one, but fucked if I can remember!

Pumped it up.

I fell in lust with these shoes the second I saw them in the store.  I tried them on, walked back and forth making sure I didn't look like one of those silly wobbly girls in heels.  Success.  I wasn't sure if I should spend the money, so I left without my black patent leather 5" shoulder shoes.  One hour later, I drove back to the store and bought them.  I mean, how could I not?

Nexus was given a description of the shoes, but no pictures, and no teasers.

Thursday night I met him at his work.  I looked so slutty, I know it.  I had the aviator dress on, patterned tights, and these shoes.  I was feeling more awkward than sexy, but was trying to pull it off anyway.  All males were staring, no shit.  I was kind of shocked at how much men seem to like these shoes!  Even one of Nexus' co-workers was having a very difficult time not getting caught staring at my legs.

When Nexus saw me, he seemed taken aback a bit, and me being so self conscious, I figured I must look awful, so I sank down a bit.  What I didn't realise until later, was that he indeed thought I looked very sexy.  Phew!

I touched his cock in my car, and he looked at me with that dreamy, spacey look that guys get when their cock gets stroked or sucked.  I love that look.  It's even better on Nexus.  His eyes are so gorgeous and when they get all dreamy like that, I just want to please him more.  Lucky for him!

We headed to his place, hungry, tired, and frisky.  We ate delicious Provencal Vegetable Soup (Soupe au Pistou) that he'd made, each had a drinky poo, and a small bit of green stuff.  As I was in the bathroom finishing brushing my teeth, he stood and watched me.  His mouth devoured mine as soon as I was done spitting out my mouthwash.  I loved that!  I felt like we should be in a commercial or something.

Our tongues explored one another's mouths for ages, and then he pulled me into the main room, and down onto the futon.  I was a bit wobbly from the recreational things we indulged in, so I just sat on the edge of the futon looking a bit stunned.  What better way to wake a girl up, then to stick your dick in her face?  None.  Not if you're Nexus, anyway.  I took my job seriously, and licked, swirled, sucked, stroked, deep-throated, and kissed his beautiful cock.  I was impressed that he hadn't cummed in my mouth when he pulled out, and asked me to put the stilettos back on.  They were such a turn-on for me too!

I took my tights off, put on the shoes, and he took off his clothes.  Fair trade, I'd say!

He pushed me onto my back, hiked up my dress, and buried his face between my thighs.  Oh fuck, he just let me have it!  AMAZING!  I don't know if it was intentional or not, but he was licking me to the tempo of the music we were listening to, and it was purrrrfect.  At one point I was so wound up I almost couldn't breathe.  At.  All.  He licked me from the bottom of my pussy, deep into me, then gently up and almost flicked his tongue with perfect pressure over my clit at the exact same time as a specific noise in the song.  I felt like I was his instrument, and he was composing music using my body.  It was so hot.  I'm not sure how many times I writhed under his tongue and face, panting and moaning "oh fuuuuucck", but enough that his fingers were webbed with my cum when he took them out of me.

He  pulled me up, and into the hallway between the bathroom and kitchen, pressed himself against me, and I just naturally succumbed to him.  I put my stilettoed foot onto the wall behind him, and his cock found its way into me, eager and greedy for my cunt.  I could feel the chill of the wall on the exposed part of my ass, as he fucked me fast and hard.  I could hear the heel of my shoe scraping against the wall, and it turned me on even more.  His teeth sunk deep and hard into my neck, and my knees buckled.  He pressed himself hard against me, steadying me.  He pulled his cock out and ran its smooth and wet head up and down my slippery clit.  I just flooded the floor with my cum.  It was running down his legs, and mine.  My right shoe was soaking wet inside as it filled up.  He made me squirt a few times, and it just kept coming.

Back at the futon, he slid his body behind mine and knelt behind me.  I tipped my head back allowing his mouth to find a clear pathway to my neck which so desperately wanted savaged again.  I'm not sure why, but when I saw his hand come from behind me, slide into my dress, and grope my breast, I thought I was going to die with ecstasy.  I melted with his touch and lay on my back.  I wanted his mouth on mine so badly.  I pulled him down to me and we made out for the longest time.  It was blissful.  Tbh, I felt an amazing amount of love, like to the point where I wondered "uhh, are we making love because this feels so intensely different than anything I've ever done...".  His tongue explored every last bit of my mouth.

Somehow we ended up in the bathroom again, and we were trying to figure out how he could pee on my clit; something we'd discussed earlier.  First, I stood over the toilet with one foot on each side of the bowl, and then he stood in front of me.  Nope.  That wasn't going to work.  Then I sat down with my legs spread wide apart, with my gorgeous shoes gleaming away, and I beamed at him as I looked up.  Nope.  That position wasn't going to work either.  He knelt down on the floor in front of me, spread my labia open, and started peeing on my clit!  His aim was spot on.  I was watching with great pleasure, and thinking that I couldn't believe I was doing this.  Once I shook that initial shock, I was able to really enjoy it.  His pee was so hot, and came at me with such a strong, but controlled stream.  He shot it out at me in spurts, then a long shot, and varied it to the point where I was so fucking turned on.  At one point we even starting making out with me sitting on the toilet and him peeing on my clit.  Wow.

When he was done we each stood up.  He washed himself first, and as I stood there, I felt one droplet of his pee running slowly down my thigh.  I took a picture.  It was hot.

My stilettos got to live up to their job of being fucking hot, but also for being shoulder shoes.  I love digging the heels into Nexus as he's fucking me, or going down on me.  At one (very hot) point, he had my legs up and was holding the heels as he fucked me stupid.

I was folded in half pretty much, and he was fucking me so deeply.  We both LOVE that really deep fucking.  It feels soooooo good.

When he came inside me I could feel his cock pulsing repeatedly for AGES.  He came more this time, than he had ever cum before, and I was the happy recipient of it.  His eyes rolled into the back of his head, and his mouth was gaping open, and all I could do was join him, and start cumming (again!).  He collapsed on me, and I lapped up this most intense feeling.  Wtf?  I think we made love.  <3

He actually shagged me out.  I had no idea it could happen, but he did it.  I completely passed out with him immediately, and for a couple of hours.  It was blissful.

Know what we did when we woke up a couple of hours later?  Yup.  Ravaged one another again.

Fabulous.  So fucking fabulous.

I love you, Nexus. <3

<3  Deviant Doll

Soundtrack:  Die Form - Bach Project

Get 'im to the Greek

My past experiences with anal sex haven't exactly been wonderful.  My first time was horrific, so I'm surprised I ever tried it again.

Nexus has two serious aversions:  feet, and shit.  I figure if you're gonna play with fire, you have to expect to get burned.  So, when I had a silly Facebook status that read:  "Leck mich am Arsch!", aka Lick my ass, I was more than surprised to find Nexus offering to do just that!  Wha?  This whole time we've been together, I wrongly assumed that he wouldn't want to play with my ass because of his fear of shit.  Thank goodness I was fucked off, and wanting to practice my German; it netted me a hot night!

I love me a Dominant guy, and there's nothing more submissive than to be on your tummy, with your man on top of you, holding you by your hair, and fucking you up the ass.  For realz, yo.

There was no element of surprise as far as the bum sex goes.  I had to be very prepared, read: give myself an enema.  Oh man, I hate that.  However, it's better than having a puddingfarts.com experience.

Our aim was for Nexus to stick his cock in all 3 available holes that I have on offer.  Yes, we're dorks like that.  I'll be honest, the whole time we were fooling around I was loving it, but I couldn't get my mind off the idea that soon he'd be entering territory that hadn't been entered many times before.  I wasn't scared at all, I was just anxious and excited!

When he snapped the glove on his hand and raised an eyebrow at me while lubing up, I let out a slow breath, and prepared for the onslaught.  He lay on top of me and we started making out again.  His finger slowly, but confidently met my ass.  The lube was cool to the touch, but not shockingly so.  The glove felt a little strange, especially once he was inside of me with two fingers; I could feel the glove squeaking!  He gently rubbed my asshole until I started to push towards him, and then he made his way inside of me.  It felt a bit funny, and foreign, but I pushed through because I knew once I relaxed we would have fun.

"Get on your tummy", he said.

I was ready for his cock, and actually, really wanted it.  He lubed me up again, and slowly pushed his cock into me.  I was tense, but remembered to breathe, and relax as much as possible.

The further he got into me, the more I loved it, and I'd say the same was for him.  Once he was fully in, he slipped me a couple of full lengths of his cock, and we both moaned.  It was so tight.  He gradually quickened his pace, and strength, holding me down with the weight of his body, and keeping me in my place by grasping my hair in his tight fist.  He used his grasp almost like reigns or something, directing me to where I should be.

I found myself bucking my hips, and pushing back into him.  He got harder and faster now, and I kept pushing back, wanting all of him.  It kind of hurt, but I enjoyed it.  I went quite animalistic when he leaned over and gave me his whole body and bit my neck too.  Fuck.  Soooo hot!

Our breathing was louder.  I love it when I can hear our breathing get more excited.

"I'm gonna cum in your ass!" he exclaimed.

I started pushing back very hard and taking as much as I could get.  Oh boy, he came so hard, and soooo much!  With pleasure tears in my eyes, I buried my face in the pillow as he lay on top of me with his twitching hard cock starting to relax inside of me.

He nuzzled my neck and kissed my ear.  We were wholly wrapped up in one another.

"Good girl" he praised.  "I love you".

Could it get any better?

<3  Deviant Doll