A draft that started in November.

So sometimes I take notes after a sexual encounter so that I'll be able to write about it accurately later.  So nerdy.  Anyhoo, as you know I have just come back to my blog after a two-month hiatus, and I realized I had a few drafts with notes that I had never actually written a full blog entry for.

I love how the point form notes sound.  They made me laugh, actually.  So, here's to an (en)forced feminization that happened a couple of months ago, and the nerdy notes that I took.


started at 1am
too much booze
used sponge instead of brush - good girl didn't flinch
nylons with built-in panties
ripped open with corkscrew
shackles
dog chain & lead
sat on her face
rode it
stroking licking sucking through nylons
boots
3 hours
feeding her drinks
making out, face stroking
buried face in crinoline
sucked cock
squirted all over her
cum slut
whore for cum
asked her to go in the hallway, but she panicked and said no
spanked otk
jerked off in nylons
lived out dream of seeing cumming through nylons
i sucked out the cum
petted stroked praised

Wasn't that great?!

<3  Deviant Doll

Bridget and her new little skirt

I've not made a habit of being sexually attracted to women, but over the last couple of months I find my mind wandering to the fairer sex sometimes.  The idea of sharing Nexus' cock with another woman is very, very hot!  Her on one side of his cock, me on the other.  Licking, sucking, making lustful eyes at each other.  Making out together with the head of his cock popping in and out of our mouths.  Yeah.  That's a good thought.  A very good thought.  I imagine the sounds of his moans would be absolutely intoxicating.  I want him to feel that much pleasure.

On Wednesday night, Nexus transformed all on his own, into Bridget.  He doesn't even need my help anymore in getting his make-up on, or choosing an outfit.  It's quite impressive, really.  Oddly, I find myself missing being more of a part of his feminization.  I need to figure out how to get myself involved in the process again.  We've reached a great spot, and now I want to amp it up again.

I fell asleep on the futon while Nexus bathed, shaved, plucked, primped, make-up'd, and got sexy as fuck.  When Bridget tapped me on the knee, I awoke to a sexy, gorgeous sight.  She smiled at me, and awkwardly turned around for me in her little ankle boots.  WOW.  She was a vision.  I bought Bridget a new skirt, and I am so glad I did.  The tiny, very fitted skirt is oh so appealing.  Bridget's legs and ass are to fucking die for!  She embodied the sexiness of a woman.  Hands down.

Before I allowed any physical contact, I made Bridget go admire herself in the full-length mirror.  As she stood looking at herself, I heard her say softly, "Wow.  Is that me?"  It was such a beautiful thing to hear.  "You know you look really hot, don't you?"  She nodded, and looked coy.  There's something really special about your woman knowing she looks hot.  There's a sense of confidence and sassiness that makes her even hotter.

After admiring her hotness, I couldn't keep my hands off of her sexy, delicious body.  Her smell intoxicates me.  I find myself slowly and deeply breathing in her scent around her neck, and gently kissing her.

I kiss and touch differently when I'm with a woman.  Most of the time I'm more gentle, and tender, though I've been known to choke and slap a couple of women when I know they like that kind of thing.  Bridget's a different story though.  I treasure her.  She's my perfect little vulnerable girl.  She wants so badly to be wanted, and to please.  Also to be used like the little slut that we all know she is.

I fantasize all sorts of filthy filthy things about Bridget, to be honest.  I imagine bringing her out to a fetish event, on collar and lead.  Letting men grope her, and turn her on.  Have her suck cock after cock, then watch her get fucked hard.

Anyway, this Wednesday night she looked just divine.  She sat so prettily on the futon, so I straddled her and we made out for so long.  I was grinding my wet pussy on her, and enjoying the rigidness between her thighs.  I love sliding my hand down on to her boobs and groping them as we make out.  It's an intense turn-on for me to go directly from her boobs to her rock hard cock, straining to get pleasured through her nylons.  I can't explain in words how much I love the feel of her through nylons.  The pre-cum soaking through...ugh...I always lick it clean.  My soaking wet cunt is the only description needed.

Of course this isn't all about me pleasuring Bridget, and taking pleasure from it.  No, she's always instructed to get on her knees and please me.  It's a beautiful sight to see her look up at me with her hugely long eyelashes, whilst she's licking my delicious pussy.

I am a constant flow of squirty cum when Bridget's around.  She turns me on in ways I've never been turned on before.  It's intoxicating, and fantastic.  Rather, she is.

She gulped my cum down as fast as she could manage.  I could hear her slightly choking on the steady and strong stream of squirt.  What a good girl.

I rode Bridget that night.  I think me losing a bit of Dominance in the feminisation process has me a little confused, so up I went.  I rode her until she was pleading with me to let her cum.  When I'd had my fill, I gave her the green light to cum, and WOW did she ever.  I could feel her pulsing inside me, filling me with her pleasure and showing me her gratefulness.

I got off of her and lay down on my back; she was breathing heavily and trying to recover.  I spread my legs, and pulled her hand towards me.  Apparently I wasn't as done as I thought.  She lapped up her own cum directly from my cunt, and got a bonus of more of my cum too.  What lucky girls we were.

<3 Deviant Doll

Firstly, please excuse the lack of postings for the last couple of months.  This blog, and our adventurous sex has not stopped.  I simply have been so busy.  I shall endeavor to do better, as it’s a good keepsake for me.

Over the last couple of months, I’ll admit, we’ve been losing a bit of the kink.  We are having mind-blowing sex, but some of the filthiness has disappeared.  This weekend Nexus and I talked a bit about that, and tried to figure out why this has changed.

I think one big factor is that we each had a bunch of stuff we wanted to try, and we did (almost) all of them.  The ones we haven’t done yet, such as the mfm, is because we haven’t found the right person to do it with.

I guess we reached the point where we were sated, and then just relaxed for a bit.  One thing is, we’ve been fantasizing so much about the mfm.  I don’t know why this seems to be so damn difficult.  I find myself getting frustrated with the process of trying to find someone suitable. To be honest, I end up feeling like a filthy perv, and not in the good way.  Lurking around trying to find someone to tempt into a sexual playdate with myself and Nexus.  Eek!

I digress.

Also over the last couple of months have been at least one (en)forced feminization, litres of cum shot and squirted, dirty talk (this is getting a bit easier for me), realizations that maybe I want to try being with a woman again, and some seriously quality sex. 

I’ll admit something, and hope that someone has the cojones to comment, and help me out.  See, I think like a filthy-minded pervert, and a really open-minded one at that.  Problem is, sometimes I completely panic, and won’t even entertain an idea *that I came up with* because I fear the repercussions.  For instance, I’ve been getting really frisky imagining myself and another woman, going down on Nexus.  The thought of his cock in between our mouths, and us making out around the head of his cock makes me want to cum.  Then when I really start to think about it, I panic.  I think thoughts such as: “what if she makes him cum?” or “how would I feel watching him fuck/kiss/go down on (etc) her?”  I want so badly to try these things before I get to the point in my life where those opportunities are too few and far between.  So what the fuck do I do?  Dammit.  Why do I care so fucking much if someone else makes Nexus cum? 

Anyway, I’m hoping someone will have some good advice for me.

There are also other situations like orgies that I find tempting, but again, the fears are all too prevalent.

Once again, I’ve spoken up with Nexus and our discussion about bringing the kink back in went very well.  We’re both in agreement that we miss it, and there’s no reason not to do it.

We shared an amazing time together this weekend, and spent it indoors the entire time. ..drenched in sweat, and cumming.  I’ve been really craving the resurgence of Bridget, and hope to get to see her again on Wednesday.  For those of you who aren’t familiar with Bridget, she is Nexus’ female persona.

The things I seem to be interested in lately are these:  mfm, fmf, orgies, sex with other people in the room, couple swapping (though for whatever reason that one made my chest tight as I typed it), en(forced) feminization of my Nexus, having a threesome with Nexus dressed as Bridget, and another femmed man, peeing on Nexus, more bondage for me, little/Daddy play, etc.  I guess there are a lot of things.  

One thing that stays strong is my love, and lust for Nexus.  He’s my loce.

<3 Deviant Doll

** Update:  We had a great time with femming on Wednesday.  Blog entry to cum soon.